One; I started reading again.
Two; Apparently to truly live takes a lot of courage.
Three; Sometimes heartbreak is worth the risk.
Four; Or is it?
Five;

Even more music

Sometimes I wonder if people bothered checking these out at all, but whatever, sharing is caring.

This is how you lose yourself

You do everything you can to escape reality. You ignore your feelings. You avoid people. You drown yourself in work. You buy things you don't need, a lot of them. You pretend that pretending you have no feelings whatsoever make you feel better. You work even more. You plan to do a hundred different new things, to try to find yourself. You managed to fail doing all of them. You start reading more books, all of them featuring fucked up, depressive people, that more or less remind you of yourself, only more interesting. You start feeling sorry for yourself. You hunt for inspiration in the dark depths of the internet, only to find them emphasizing the hollow in your soul. You start eating more. You stop eating. You realize one day that you are just destroying yourself this way, but you don't know better. You never did knew better.

After all, you don't have the courage to find out.